Like a dog in heat

  My little Chihuahua is in heat.  What does this have to do with the American government. Plenty!
 Well. You know the saying "like a dog in heat". Well, OK.  The female is the one that actually goes into a "heat".
 However, it is the male dog that acts like a crazed, mad idiot to  get to that female.
Now, think of the American Taxpayer's money as "the heat" and the fat cats in the government as
the male dog.
 Get the picture?
 They do what they want. Get what they want. And have fun playing with our money in the process. They think it's theirs.
 Look at all the money given away to stupid projects. There's the brown snake, the wine, ladies driving, shrimp, The National Endowment for the Arts for God's sake!
 WHY do we let our government that we OWN throw away our money like this?
 What do we do about it?
 Apparently we need to spay the act of paying taxes. Stop the flow of money, so the REAL DOGS IN HEAT won't have anymore money to play with.
  So unfair. So stupid.
 I can't believe we've turned into such a stupid country.
 We're forced to pay taxes, and they throw it away.
 I'm sick.

Glenn Beck- Corruption Investigator

 Well, he's done it. Glenn Beck has cracked the code of our corrupt  (supposed) president.

While nothing good may ever happen because of good American people who oppose Obama,  we'll at least know who is screwing us and how it happened.

Thank you Glenn Beck! You are an amazing Corruption Investigator. Terrorist Investigator.

Can our people overcome all this crooked-dom and make this country great again?

It just doesn't seem possible.

Common Sense, I love you.

Ugly

Ok, that last remark was ugly. I feel a little bad about saying it.

Still, she and Mack Daddy O sure make a good pair. If you like liberal dopes.

James David Manning is an amazing person. He sure tells it like it is. I love his videos.


Why are people so blind? Is it the glare from the Mack Daddy O? Yeah, I think it is.

Nazi Pelosi

There's not much to say. Really. Maybe she'll go to S. Florida and run into a gator while she's walking?
 Maybe a liberal selective tornado? Maybe a liberal selective bear in Montana or something?
There's gotta be a perfect way.
What a dumbass.
She's been there far too long. Stupid liberal dipshit.
Hey, Nazi Pelosi. If you've got a bullet, I'm sure we can find you a gun!

Californians Need Water!

Ok. I'm already tired of writing about that stupid idiot I'm married to.
I'm switching to complaining about the government instead.
OBAMA is a liar and an idiot! He does not care what the people are saying!  People are begging him to
do something, and he just turns his back. He really is the anti-Christ isn't he?
I gotta fix this page, it's ugly.
 Anyway. FRESNO CALIFORNIA! I feel your pain people! WHY don't you all just go turn on those damn pumps and to hell with the government idiots? They can't put all of you in jail!!
THAT IS YOUR FRIGGING WATER! YOURS!!!! It belongs to the state of California, and most importantly, the PEOPLE of that valley! HOLY crap! What has this country come to.
That one guy said it just right, DOMESTIC TERRORISM!
I donated a measly 10 bucks with my paypal account. I'm broke as hell. I don't have a job. I'm living off my MOTHER and I'm 36 years old!  I don't know if I'll have my vehicle by next month because I can't make the payment, but I put in my 10 dollars worth to those people at farmwater.org.
 Go there and make a donation. Just 5 or 10 dollars will add up!
 We're getting more and more food from china! HELLO!
 If American can't make the food, those other countries can. That means, the money is going into their pockets instead of AMERICANS pockets.
VOTE EM OUT! VOTE EM OUT! VOTE EM OUT! VOTE EM OUT! VOTE EM OUT! VOTE EM OUT!
 Not that it will do much good, because the next corrupt dipshit just takes his place.
 Come on! I love animals! But, worrying about that damn fish over those people?
 You know what it is. That little fish feeds the bigger fish which the fishermen have to catch to make their money. FINE! But, something's gotta give.
There's got to be a better solution.
 Hell. If they can "farm" trout in ponds in North Carolina, they can "farm" minnows in ponds in California and the "spray" them into wherever it is that the salmon are.
 They do that in NC with big ol' fish. Why not do it with small ones?
 Hell, that's jobs to be created in California.
 Yeah, there's been so much good to happen since Obama has been in office. (that's sarcasm)
Spare me. What a freak show. Czars and all.
GOD. Please Help America.

9-11

GOD
     BLESS
              AMERICA
Have You Cried For America Today?

Control Freak

    My husband is an idiot.  Is yours?  Does your husband make you sick?

   Over the years my husband has tried to get me to have sex with other men.  Yeah, you read that right.  He didn't try to keep me from having sex with other men.  He wanted me to do it.   Being the stupid idiot that I WAS, I did. Once.  With a guy I had gone to school with for years.  I had always had sort of a crush on him, but that's probably too strong a word.  So, one evening, I let him do me.  Now, I say that he let me because I actually didn't participate.  I just lay there, horribly embarrassed, and soon it was over.

    It wasn't long however, before the true reason my husband wanted me to do other men came out.  He actually told me that, now, since I had done someone else, it was his turn.  So, for the next several weeks, he kept on at me about some woman at work he wanted to have sex with.

   Finally one day I remember that I had had enough.  Enough of the telling me that he should be able to have sex with another woman.  And enough of him treating me like crap when I didn't want to have sex with him.  Bear in mind, this was before I had a child.  He was constantly in heat.

  I remember I finally got mad enough and told him to go for it.  I guess he did some planning or something, and I remember the night he supposedly went to meet up with this woman at a local hotel I cried myself to sleep.  But, he was home pretty soon. And, supposedly she wasn't able to meet him there because of her husband. Yep.  She was married too!

  Well, you have to understand that after all that, and him finally actually getting to "hook up" with her one night (yes, I cried) it turns out, that apparently he had already been banging her all along.


    I remember that I went by his work once and watched from behind an adjacent building.  I even had Steve with me, but he was just a couple of years old.   What I saw at first sort of shocked me.  His truck was parked in a spot, facing one direction, and her car was parked right next to his truck, facing the other direction..  That way they could be "side by side" but sitting in their own vehicle.  Maybe trying to hide their little relationship from the other people there. I don't know.

  Sometime later, maybe the next day, I'm not sure, he called me to bring him lunch out at the interstate rest stop where his crew was working.   I got him some food and headed over there (like a good little wife).  When he began to eat, I confronted him about his little parking arrangement.  I told him not to do it anymore.


  As far as I remember that was about it. He said he wouldn't do that anymore, but hey, he never gave a crap about what I wanted or thought or felt.  So, I'm sure he kept doing it.  Each time he did something stupid like this, either his sexual escapades or being mean and cruel to me, or later, being an invisible father, it chipped away at my self confidence and happiness and feelings.  I covered up a lot of stuff, because that's how I am, but it was there alright.  My soul was slowly dying.

  I'm rebuilding it now.  Being away from him for almost eight months now has been pure heaven.

Start at the Beginning

   I figured I should include a little history of my marriage.  I would like people to see exactly why I need a divorce from this man.  I never wanted a divorce. All I ever wanted, and repeatedly asked for, was for him to grow up and be a decent father and husband.  After 15 years I could never get that.

  My number one problem with the husband is that he was never a daddy.  He never cared enough about our son to spend any time with him.  He has always been full of excuses.  Now that our son is 14 and he and I have moved out, his dad is still using excuses.  Now the blame is put onto our son.  He says that our son doesn't want to spend time with him, doesn't want to be with him, so it's not his fault.

  I want to describe just how evil I believe my husband is. So, I'm going to begin describing things that have happened, way in the past,  and things that have happened recently.

    Way back when my son (I'm just going to have to give him a name. I'll call him Steve, because he thinks that name is funny), way back when he was just a baby, I had just gotten him to sleep in our bed when the ol' husband (I've already named him: dipshit) started wanting sex as usual.  I'm tired and so happy to have some quite time and be able to relax that I sure as hell don't want to have sex.

   So, I let him know that I don't want to.  I mean, this is an everyday thing.   So, while I lay there enjoying the peace and quiet and relaxation, dipshit is bothering me and he's getting meaner and meaner.

   I guess I should point out here that I did everything for Steve.  EVERYTHING.  dipshit never did anything. He never helped. PERIOD.  I hope you understand this.  I did ALL the parenting.  And, 14 years later, I still do.

    So, pretty soon after he's been using his mouth to berate me and belittle me because I don't want to have sex, he then begins to kick me.   He keeps his foot against my body and pushing pushing pushing over and over over and over.  I will estimate that he did this for at least 30 minutes to 1 hour.  That's a long time to be kicking your wife because she doesn't want to have sex.

  I actually doze off while he's kicking me.  That's something I normally could never do, because it has to be very quite and calm for me to fall asleep unless I am VERY tired.

  dipshit also like sharing.   You may know it as swinging.  Whatever you may call it, I call it disgusting.

     I'll write more about his sharing habits in my next post.

Supernanny

  Do you ever watch Supernanny?   I love this show.  Right now I'm watching the episode in Alaska, with Brian the single dad of 4.  This poor guy. I feel so bad for him.

    He's a sweetheart and he needs a GOOD WOMAN to help him out.  I imagine that he is a very sweet guy. I imagine that he would not be mean or cruel or hurtful.  I really don't think he would be abusive in any way, either physically or emotionally.

  Of course, I could be wrong.  Maybe he's a monster.  Maybe he's an idiot. I don't know.

  My uncle says all that stuff is set up.  It's all fake.  How can you think that kids acting horribly is fake?
Dude, you can't teach that.

    I don't know what you think about Jo Frost, but I love her. Now, I never had any trouble with my son when he was young. I spent almost every hour of every day with him until he started school.  Then, I spent almost every minute of every day with him when he wasn't in school.  I attribute that to him being  such a decent little kid.

 Now? He's 14. Need I say more?  Yeah, he's back talking.  He's ornery.  He won't do what I tell him. He makes me so mad.  I get  so disgusted with him.  I think about running away.  Don't kids run away?  It's sort of expected, isn't it?  Well, I think it's time for mom's to get a chance to run away.  Not forever.  Not at the expense of the children.  Just a vacation.  Maybe a Momcation?

 Of course, I have to assume there are mom's out there possibly on permanent Momcation.  You know the ones. You've probably seen them on television.  You know the ones.  Their little children don't even want to go to them.  They scream and cry if  "mommy" wants to hold them.  Those women are stupid.  They shop all day, go to the gym, get their hair done, nails, TOENAILS!   I guess all that is more important than being with their children.

 My son just informed me that tomorrow is Labor Day.  He doesn't have to go to school!!!

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Difficulties of Life

  I realize it's only been a very short few minutes since my last post.  Oh well. I have nothing else to do.

 Well, I want to talk about children. My son is 14 going on 21. You know? Yeah, you know, if you have kids.  He's getting to where he won't listen to me.   I have to tell him for 30 + minutes in the morning to get up!  The other morning, he WOULD NOT get up.  When he finally did, he went and got his shower and then when he came out, he said  "all that time and it's only 7:40?".

 I said well, it's actually  7:20, but why? What does that mean?

Turns out, he was TRYING to waste time so he wouldn't have to go to first period.  Am I that big of a sucker?  Yeah, I guess I am.  I've let him get away with a lot over the years.  But, unfortunately he's acting a lot like that thing that fathered him.  I don't need another dipshit.  That will be the husband's formal name from now on.  I'm not going to capitalize it though.

 Really, though, this divorce will be the best thing I've ever done for myself.  Hopefully it will sort of cancel out the worst thing I've ever done to myself, which is getting married.

 Sad fact:  I left in January.  I waited until August to file. How stupid is that?  I mean, theoretically the divorce could have been final by now.  That makes me sick.  I don't much like thinking about it.

 I think in my next post I'll talk about something different.  Maybe the art of starting a fire?

Space. I need space.

  I have a lot of junk. I had to go the house I currently own together with the husband yesterday and pick up a load of my junk. I filled up the back of my truck, plus the front passenger seat and filled in the empty space of the back seat. I still have crap in there from the last time I picked up junk.
 
 Where am I supposed to put it? This is a slight dilemma when you have moved in with someone. It's not necessarily that want to keep all of it.  I don't. But, what do I do with it while I go through it to figure out what to get rid of?

  I've decided I'm going to rent a space inside one of the local antique places.  I got a call from them the other day, but I didn't call them back.  Hopefully I haven't missed my chance.

 Yard sales are of course a  viable option, but I STILL don't have anyplace to keep stuff until I have one.

 This is the position the husband has put me in.  And, what kind of stuff does he have to say?

 "You didn't have to leave.  It's not that bad.  I'm not that bad."  blah blah blah

 Well, I've got clothes to get out of the dryer before mom gets to them.

 NEVER GET MARRIED!

New Life

Wow! I just read my first post. I guess that was a couple of years ago! It was a bit informative. I didn't even remember I had written that. So, that was cool.

I figured I'd have to delete it or something, but after reading it, I felt that it was completely honest and everything was right on the money.

Now, 2 years later, we're split up again. Of course, we have done so probably 2 or 3 times since that first post. Does it even have a date on it? I'll have to look.

Anyway, here I am, living in mom's house. What a trip. I finally filed for divorce this time though.

I don't know how long it will be before he does his part and files his papers. I have to wait on him to do that, unfortunately.

Well, all in all, if I end up living in a tent on the side of the road somewhere, it will always be better than living with that freakshow of a husband.

He's so stupid! I mean, I moved out (for the hundreth? time) in January. In August I filed for divorce. He gets the papers surprisingly the very next day from the cops and he proceeds to get all defensive! He starts in on me about "you not only want back child support, you want to run me out of my house and make me pay you half of what it's worth too!"

Well, what a dipshit. Of course I want back child support. It's only fair. What the hell makes him think he should get off so easily as to not pay a penny for seven months, and then to only have to start paying child support after the divorce is final? What a fruit cake.

So, I tell him, hey, you're only mad because you have to pay child support. Otherwise you're happy with this happening. And, he proceeds to tell me (we're texting nowadays) No, I'm fine with paying child support, I have a problem with YOU.

Hmmm, funny.

Ok, so, later though, after some more texting, he says something stupid like " I guess I was stupid to think that last week we could have worked it out"

WHAT? Uh, did you not just tell me off and say that you have a problem with me?

Geeze, fruity.

Ok, so I'll stop talking about that for now. It's just ridiculous.

I'll be so glad to be free from him.